One month and 16 days

I’ve been debating for over a month as to whether I should start a blog or not. Not for anyone else other than myself really. Writing has always been an escape for me, a coping mechanism and just a way for me to express myself. I’ve never been much of a talker. It’s always been…

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I’m still grieving

I wrote about grief a couple of months ago. I said that I was going through the stages of grief. I was at anger. And I feel like I’ve been stuck there ever since. They say grief comes in waves.. but I feel like I’m drowning. I’m still grieving the life I used to have.…

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March 15th, 2019

I think i should just come right out and say it… IT GREW. This son of a bit** grew, again. And I’m pissed. Two times since September. Two times since starting treatment. TWO times in six months. I think its safe to say I am beyond angry. I’m way passed frustrated. You don’t understand the…

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“Dear“ Cancer

Cancer, I’m not starting this letter with “Dear” because, FUCK YOU. It’s me, the girl whose dreams you shattered, and body you stomped on. You have trespassed. You have broken and entered. You have robbed me. You are the BIGGEST felon. I have something to say about that. But you don’t deserve my anger. You…

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Jan. 24th 2019

Frustrated. I’m so frustrated. I’m frustrated that I’ve had a headache that gets worse throughout the day for a week now. I’m frustrated that I’m always so tired and exhausted. I’m frustrated that I forget what I’m doing while I’m doing it. I’m frustrated that I often feel sick to my stomach since starting chemo.…

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I’m ready for you

There’s only a couple of hours left in this year, the year that turned my whole world upside down. The last three months have bought more tears, fear, frustration, anger, anxiety, stress, and sadness than I could have ever imagined, but I have chosen to stay optimistic in 2019. Will it always be easy? Probably…

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December 6th

I haven’t had much to say for days.. honestly, I still don’t. There’s been so much on my mind that I feel like I’m missing everything going on around me. I mean, I pretty much am, being in the hospital for 6 days, and cooped up in my house for 2 now. The days seem to…

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