So it’s Friday night. The end of week 5 of radiation and I am drained. 😵 I feel like I’ve been moving in slow motion most of the week, not really sure how I’ve managed to work all week long. As soon as I lay down in bed, I’m done! It feels so good to just relax.
I didn’t imagine that radiation would be so exhausting. I was told there would be fatigue, but I thought 🤷🏻♀️ That doesn’t sound so bad. It’s worse. I haven’t been sleeping well basically since I started and the exhaustion from the physical pain, the burns, the headaches, and the exhaustion from whatever the hell the radiation is doing inside my body is catching up. It’s not just radiation. It’s freaking radioactive beams being aimed at my head 15 minutes a day, five days a week, for seven weeks. That’s 35 days! Crazzzyyy.
I had a rough night last night and woke up not really feeling myself today. Had a late start to everything. To radiation, work, and kinda just getting into the routine of the day, but I survived. I hate that this is my life now. That I feel like I can’t keep up with my day to day tasks. But I have to accept it and slow down and remember that my main priority is my health.
There’s only two weeks left of radiation and I’m counting down the days till I get to ring that bell in the waiting room! 10 days till I reach the finish line. Although this isn’t near finished yet. My journey is just beginning. After radiation, my doctors are going to decide what comes next. What treatments I would benefit from, if surgery isn’t so risky anymore and so on, so fingers crossed that radiation is doing what its supposed to and shrinking this tumor! 🤞🏼
Just “one of those girls” one of those strong girls.